What I’m doing here is making money so I can pay to have a life in the city.

The real passion project work is done in my free time.

All that matters with work is: 1) do I make enough to live comfortably 2) can I leave at 5 and not have to work longer than that and 3) is work not burning me out/do I have enough energy to live my real life outside of work.

Work in my free time is done with positive energy. Bit by bit, year by year, decade by decade. Slow work is happy work, good work comes slowly.

At work I’m relearning how to enjoy/tolerate the workday. To be effective without it draining me. It doesn’t matter how much I work or what my title is. I’m learning how to be steady.

What the heck. Life is long. I’m in no rush to do anything, like anything, let alone find a partner or buy a house or get my dream job or have kids or whatever. Hopefully I’ll be a fun uncle one day. That’s all that I really need.

My plan is to save up some money and do some soul searching for what I want to work on.