When I wasn't looking

June 22nd 2024




Somehow, when I wasn’t looking, body image issues seeped in. Self esteem issues. I got sad, I got tired. I was hard on myself for sleeping in. I was hard on myself for not exercising.

Whatever happened to I am who I am? Whatever happened to take it or leave it?

Somehow, when I wasn’t looking, the need to impress creeped in. The need to prove something. The need to please.

Happy first. First happy. How many times do I need to keep reminding myself that?

Positive energy. Doing things out of enjoyment. Anything else is exhausting.

Being ok with being tired. As long as the toxicities aren’t sapping my energy, low energy means I need rest and that’s ok.